I remember weekend mornings. Lying in bed for twenty minutes having a full negotiation with myself about whether or not to step on the scale. The monsters always encouraging me …
One voice: yes, weigh yourself. You barely ate yesterday. You worked out hard. You probably lost something.
Another voice: don’t. You know it’s going to be bad. It always is.
And a third: why does it even matter.
And just like that, my day was decided. Not by what I had to do or who I had to see or what I wanted to feel — but by a number. A single number that took seconds to produce and then lived in my head for the rest of the day.
The day I stopped letting the scale speak for me, stopped negotiating my worth with a number, was the day I finally heard my own voice again. Healing began right after.
My past self would be proud that I finally stopped letting a number tell me who I am. I’m learning to trust my voice, not the monsters. Intro episode to season two of The Flavored Word podcast is up — linked below.
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DISCLAIMER: These are my personal experiences and opinions. Nothing here is medical, nutritional, or therapeutic advice. Also, I’m a writer and an editor. And I try my best to make sure every post is articulate and free from errors. However, being that I edit my own work—and it’s next to impossible to properly edit your own work—I admit, occasionally there may be an error or two I miss. But doing so doesn’t make me an idiot so don’t be mean. Just smile, pat yourself on the back for finding an error and be glad you’re not the only one who makes mistakes sometimes … xoxox
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